06 October 2007
The End of the Beginning
I started this blog as a way of trying to write about something that had become a part of me, namely my desire to be a mother. I needed a quiet place in blogland to do this, somewhere I could be anonymous, somewhere that certain people from my other [...]
29 September 2007
35 Weeks 3 Days
More monitoring yesterday, including a scan because one of the babies wasn’t moving around very much. Le Bebe is fine, just squished, so this is a shape of things to come, I guess – because he’s not got much room I can expect fewer movements from him, whereas his [...]
31 August 2007
Choices-And Not Just a Chi-Chi Name for an Insurance Programme
I’m home now. I have been dwelling in the Eternal Land of Suckvile for three days, and finally busted loose in a blaze of NHS tea and lactated ringers late yesterday.
This hospital stay was the worst yet. It was bad because I [...]
27 July 2007
It’s All Fun and Games
Another day of fun. I thought the drama ended with the CVS nightmare, as my second trimester has been a breeze. I could do without drama. Drama is exhausting and not in an ‘I’m burning calories efficiently’ kind of way.
This morning I was informed in no [...]
28 June 2007
My Grass Isn’t Greener, It’s Just My Side of the Fence
I ran into an old neighbor the other week. She’s a good friend as well, but someone who I sometimes struggle with. I had to go to the village we used to live in to get a refill on my Cyclogest [...]
29 May 2007
Bewared of Unplanned Works
Our midwife visit is tomorrow, in which we’re hoping to go over…well, to be honest, neither of us has a fucking clue what it is we’re supposed to go over. We’re supposed to go over something, anyway, possibly the early view of a birth plan, my weight, what topiary [...]
30 April 2007
Calmly Putting My Mask On Before Helping Others
Just got home after a full-day meeting in London.
I managed to speak to the lab, who finally had my results at about 1:00 pm (which they didn’t have when I rang them at 10 am. Not like I’m persistent or anything.)
Our Lemonhead is just fine.
We [...]
30 March 2007
Top 5 Things You Never Think You’ll Hear at the Fertility Clinic and OH MY GOD
So I’ve been thinking about the things I’ve heard that I never expected to hear at the fertility clinic:
1) Yup. It’s twins.
2) Your uterus is perfect! It’s so fat!
3) If it’s ok with you, I’m afraid [...]
27 February 2007
Seriously, If You Want Math Get a Calculator
So by checking on dates from my last cycle (aka The Cycle That Did Not End Well), I calculated that 8 days after my positive pregnancy test the spotting started. The spotting turned into bleeding. The bleeding turned into clots. The clots turned [...]
31 January 2007
The Temperature is Slowly Rising
Right, so the scan today revealed that I’m now at 11 eggs, which isn’t stellar but it does meet egg share requirements. Egg share in the UK works thus: the donee pays the cost of her IVF cycle and my IVF cycle, provided I have at least 8 [...]
26 December 2006
We’re Off
We’re off tomorrow to go skiing in Canada for a long while, and we cashed in a load of Aidan’s air miles so we’ll be flying business out there, and first on the way back (which is possibly more exciting to me than you can imagine. I’m immature, I’m ok with [...]
28 November 2006
My Five Things
So Jamie tagged me (and she’s having a hard time, so go say hi to her) and really-I got nothing but acupuncture and “we’re starting soon” stories, so I’ll play along.
Five things you probably didn’t know about me:
1) I used to be in a Passion Play in Glen Rose, Texas, called [...]
30 October 2006
WWCSTGTPBIYSNTTYBKUINO
Woman Who Can’t Seem To Get Themselves Pregnant But If You Stand Next To Them You’ll Be Knocked Up In No Time (or WWCSTGTPBIYSNTTYBKUINO* for short) continues.
Yesterday we had a Halloween party, and one of Aidan’s sisters-in-laws was there. She is very nice. She is very kind. She has the [...]
29 September 2006
Google Me This
The following Google searches have hit my blog:
cycolgest medicine – aka “Ass Bullets” and “Beaver Bullets”. This is the nice progesterone pessary. You can put it up the bum (but expect an…ahem….active colon if you do so, complete with popping dog farts) or up your hooch, in which case [...]
31 August 2006
Thursday
So I’ve had what’s called a complete miscarriage-that means no medical intervention needed, the body is taking care of itself. I’m still bleeding and will continue for about another week, then all should be ok. The good news is I get to wear tampons now.
The bad news is I’m no longer [...]
31 July 2006
Nearly There
Not having to do shots right now is great.
With great satisfaction I chugged my last needle into the orange container on Friday, grinning that I wouldn’t have to use needles again (and then I modified that to: At least until my next IVF cycle. Let’s be practical here, babe.)
I started the [...]
30 June 2006
BUM BUM!
There’s this Disney cartoon I remember from childhood-it’s a park ranger in charge of all these bears. The bears need a bit of convincing to play tidy up the nursery, so he sings this song-”First you pick it up, put it in the bag BUM BUM! That’s the way we play the [...]
28 May 2006
I’m Checking Out
My mother rings on Saturday night, while we were at New Forest. I don’t answer because my phone is on silent, but I wouldn’t have answered anyway. We stopped being close some years ago, it’s better this way. If the scent of disfunction is too strong for you at this, I [...]
30 April 2006
The Waiting Game
We are now in the dreaded time period that is called the 2ww-the two week wait. Everything before this seems easy by comparison. Although this is now my third visit into 2ww territory, it’s still something that weighs heavily on my mind. The stress, it’s true, feels somehow less this time [...]
30 March 2006
So Now It’s Been 8
I’ve had 8 shots now. I keep expecting the bad humor to come along, but amazingly I’ve been more patient than ever. If it weren’t for the hot flashes, the indigestion and the bloated bruised stomach, I’d consider staying on these shots. I do have the PMS-the period should [...]
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